P.s This is my written eulogy read at my moms funeral.
The death of you is an incalculable lasting blow, because no one will love me the way you loved us. The sacrifices, struggles, and pain you endured for me I will forever be grateful but never forget. At age 3, I had no knowledge of why you left me but as I got old I understood and it was so worth it. Thank you to Martina and family for accepting you and also Mary Ephraim and Grace Joseph for raising me up. I know you loved us unconditionally but that type of love I won’t feel until I have a child of my own. You are and amazing, humble and radiant mother. You had an amazing soul. I now have an incredible testimony to tell your grandkids of how strong you were.
Despite how sick you were, you always had that bright smile on your face. You made me the happiest daughter on earth. It’s because of you and God I am who I am today; a strong woman. It’s because of you mom my faith, hope and trust in God is strong. I’ve experienced and seen what he has done for you. He is really our father, maker, the almighty and most high God. Mom, through out the years you’ve prepared me for this day. Our memories are my life solace. I remember you used to think that you were a burden in my life, I remember you apologizing to me for me having to work endlessly to take care of you, you were so worried about me not being able to go to college and having a regular young adult life. What you didn’t know was I was happy, I took it as a blessing in being able to take care of you. You’ve done so much for your kids, what kind of child would I be to live her sick mom behind. You are irreplaceable.
I don’t regret anything I did for you, I did it for us. I can go on about the many lessons and life experiences I’ve learnt from caring for you but I’ll just thank God. It was worth it all. I want you to know and everyone else to know that I am grateful that God gave me a battle I thought I couldn’t handle. I didn’t know that I was so strong. This battle taught me more and more about god. After 21 years of battling this deadly diseases, with all the chemo and radiation taken. May 2nd 2019, God decided that he’s daughter, my mom has suffered enough. I am heart broken that you are no longer here with me physically but know you are right next to me in spirit. You are my guardian angel and I thank god that your suffering has ended. You prepared me for this day throughout the years, thank you for giving me strength. I love you my warrior queen, ma fifin, ma faustina. I will miss you dearly. My queen, you will forever be the blood that runs through my heart. I love you so much.
Proverbs 18:10 The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run into it and are safe. Nehemiah 8:10 Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.
Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
My mom had a big beautiful funeral. Everyone wore the colors that she always wanted pink (to represent what she had), purple (her favorite color) and white (for the angel she’s become). Thank you everyone who attended my moms funeral and helped out in every way. I now have a beautiful guardian angel.